I work as an IT guy supporting public housing authorities in New England. Â This is a challenging task for a number of reasons, and its stressful at times to say the least.
Every day I encounter people that are in the final stages of their lives. Â Every day I meet people in the beginning stages of discovering their own redemption, rebuilding their lives after facing some collapse of their personal experience. Â I see people who have given up, people in need, people who have lost their sense of direction and those that have just discovered the direction they are headed. Â It’s inspiring and heartbreaking.
Every day I work with people who dedicate themselves to helping others. Â Yet every day I hear people besmirch the work they do, denigrating their roll to a caricatureÂ of some stereotype they can easily dismiss. Â It’s frustrating.
I see the damage that thisÂ creates within society, the self-fulfilling prophecy perpetuated on the people seeking help among the classes they once belonged to. Â It’s a brutal world for the poor, and its growing harder to escape the grip of poverty once it grasps you in its clenches.
I learned my lessons young, faced my bouts of homelessness as a child and as a young adult. Â Without the assistance of public housing I wouldn’t be here, likely wouldn’t even be alive. Â That’s the kind of thing that lingers as I go through he day to day struggles of my job.
Zendigity is something I focus on to break my stress, something beautiful to create when life gets too ugly. Â Its a way of expressing a series of truths I’ve discovered in my journey, and the hope that those truths may inspire others.
It’sÂ Â the way IÂ rediscover my balanceÂ in the midst of the storm, how to let go and allow things to happen as they will. Â Zendigity is how I sustain my sanity when surrounded by the insane, it’s a way to pull myself out of the equation and allow theÂ experience to develop.
Without Zendigity, it all seems too broken to contemplate on its own. Â It’s a tool for ponderance, in the propensity of infinite potentiality. Â It’s something to get lost in.